It’s fascinating the cycles we put ourselves in! It’s curious to me the way you spoke to your self about allowing yourself to drink “just one more day, I’ll quit tomorrow” is often how people in recovery speak of staying sober each day “I won’t drink today, just make it through today”. It’s interesting that the same guideline of a period of time, one more day, a sprint of sorts, can be used on either side. Yet you took it further and set in stone that you would quit forever - a kind of breaking of the cycle! Even if you did have to just make it through some days there was a backdrop, a belief that you just wouldn’t drink again.
It’s so interesting to see the Then & Now series of excavating an older post and pairing it with where you are now. Thank you for sharing your beautiful writing and experiences! 💜
Thank you Trisha :) I think the one day at a time feeling for me was so related to being able to drink, permission to drink, that I wasn't able to hold the responsibility of that day to day. Forever felt so safe to me.
It is a breaking of a cycle, and it's interesting how the cycle shows up over and over. I am really enjoying looking back, and I'm glad you're enjoying it too. Thank you for taking the time to read it.
It’s fascinating the cycles we put ourselves in! It’s curious to me the way you spoke to your self about allowing yourself to drink “just one more day, I’ll quit tomorrow” is often how people in recovery speak of staying sober each day “I won’t drink today, just make it through today”. It’s interesting that the same guideline of a period of time, one more day, a sprint of sorts, can be used on either side. Yet you took it further and set in stone that you would quit forever - a kind of breaking of the cycle! Even if you did have to just make it through some days there was a backdrop, a belief that you just wouldn’t drink again.
It’s so interesting to see the Then & Now series of excavating an older post and pairing it with where you are now. Thank you for sharing your beautiful writing and experiences! 💜
Thank you Trisha :) I think the one day at a time feeling for me was so related to being able to drink, permission to drink, that I wasn't able to hold the responsibility of that day to day. Forever felt so safe to me.
It is a breaking of a cycle, and it's interesting how the cycle shows up over and over. I am really enjoying looking back, and I'm glad you're enjoying it too. Thank you for taking the time to read it.